Challenging Beliefs or Ideas

       My friends' birthday is around Christmas.  I was attending his birthday party, And after the party was over me and a small group of friends were hanging out, sorta like the "after party" except more of a gathering than party.  This was about two years ago.  We were lying outside, on the grass, gazing at the hundreds of stars above us since we were away from the city lights in the suburbs.  Then Kyle, the birthday boy, asked us all if we believed that there was some sort of god or deity out there watching us, and if so, why?  We all thought about it, debated about it, and that's when my beliefs were challenged.  What is it that makes me believe that there is something out there?  The biggest argument saying a God exists was: "How did we come to be? How were we created and why do we have the intelligence to do what we do?" The biggest argument against the idea of a creator was: "Science says everything came from the big bang.  They have evidence of of the big bang from radio waves, and, according to these waves, the Milky Way is one of the oldest galaxies in the Universe. And if there is a God, what created it? 
       The result of that one night of questioning the existence of god is that I'm left doubting if there is one.  Sometime certain amazing, seemingly impossible things, will happen, and my faith is revived, but then I remember how miserable so many people are, and then I think, if there is a god, why is he letting this happen? So my faith is pretty rocky.
      The courage to challenge beliefs is important because sometimes if you don't challenge beliefs, you'll stumble blindly through life.  For example, if you live life with racist, sexiest beliefs and you don't stop for a moment and question, why do I believe this? Than you'll just be an ignoramus for the rest of your life.  Maybe if you question your beliefs hard enough, you'll find out what keeps you ticking everyday!  

My New Years Resolution

       My two personal New Years resolution is to reach my goal of a 18-20% BMI and to bleach my hair and turn it silver. To acheive my first goal, I could start eating healthier to get my metabolism steady.  I could also workout to get my body toned and fit.  I could do cardiovascular exercises to increase my metabolism to encourage weight loss and muscle gain.  To reach the latter goal without going bald I could take care of my hair.  I could grow out my roots more (the healthiest part of my hair) and when I bleach it, there will be less of a chance of hair loss then bleaching dyed hair. Then I'll be able to destroy it some more. :)

       

       The two academic goals I have this year is to do better in school and get more motivated.  I could try to get more motivated by thinking about my future and visualizing the consequences that come with bad decisions.  Once I have achieved that goal, I'm on my way to doing better in school! It would be like a chain reaction, I'd be afraid of the future and I'd try my best to prevent anything that would get in the way for me to have a happy ending.