Why did I do it ?

       Why had caused me to miss more than half of the ninth grade and about 2 months of school in tenth?  What had made me do the things I did? Why made me do it? I was sick of the fact that so much of the fact that so much of your life depends on how well you do as a teenager.  I was sick of the all the expectations that I was expected to meet.  Sick of all the pressures that were coming from home, from school, from society.  I was just sick of everything and everyone.  I felt as if everything was coming from me from all sides.  I was wanted to be left alone, take a break from reality.  I wanted to do my own thing and just have fun.  I didn't care about what would happen to me, I lived for the moment.  I was self destructive.  But then I eventually realized how badly it could end, I realized there's way to balance out things, there's a time for fun and a time for work. I came to the realization that I was becoming my own obstacle, that I'd have to get past myself to achieve my goals.  I'm still working on the whole balancing things out and doing good, but I'm in a much better place, and I'm certainly making my dreams into plans.  

Design Your Own Roster

Since I want to be a psychologist I'd want to take classes that would help me prepare for it. I'd have my classes in this order:        1. Statistics       2. Health       3. Physiological psychology        4. Introduction to cognitive science       5. Lunch       6. Sociology 
I'd want to have fun while I'm in school too so I'd also take:        7. Art       8. Gym       9. English

Impression of Myself

       If I seen myself walking into a room I'd probably think I was weird.  I mean, you don't see many people walking around with greenish blue hair.  I'd probably think I was a extremely random person because sometimes I can be super talkative, other times I'm not.  I'd probably think I was an emotional person, because sometimes I can be really angry, really happy, or just really timid.  That probably runs along the lines of the random part of me.  I'd probably think that I was an intimidating person due to my rapidly changing temperaments.  

Career Choice

        I want to be a child and adolescent psychiatrist.  I feel as if there isn't enough people who'll take the time to really listen to the small voices who are crying out for help.  There aren't many people who won't listen because they refuse to change the whole "children should be seen but not heard" mentality.  I feel as if I could be there for those who need someone to help them.
     
       To pursue this career, I would have to take many kinds of courses.  Psychiatry combines biological, neurological, and social knowledge to figure out what is wrong with the patient.  I would first attend medical school for four years, finish 3 years of adult residency, and have two years of specialized training of psychiatry for children.
     
       On average, psychiatrists can expect to start out making $70,000 to $170,000 a year.  In Pennsylvania, after 10-15 years, a psychiatrist can make $180,000 to $196,000 on average.  There is a shortage on psychiatrists, and about 46% of all psychiatrists are at least 55 years old.  The shortage on psychiatrists seems to be more in rural areas then urban areas though.              
      One way I could gain experience now is I could volunteer at retirement homes.  I would help out at a retirement home so that I could gain experience with elderly people and get to know how they act.  I could also volunteer at the library to help with children.  Since I want to be an adolescent psychiatrist, helping with elderly adults and helping out with kids could give me some forehand knowledge on how children and the elderly generally act.  
      
       In conclusion, I want to be a adolescent psychiatrist.  This job is compatible with what I like to do and what I'm interested in.  There is also a high demand for this job so this job would definitely be something I'd love to pursue.